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blog after blog after blog after blog. I hope that i stick at this one. 

When I thought asia, having previously been there I thought tall buildings, the sharp eye liner designs, clean streets, lots of grey, lots of architecture and lots of rice. Taiwan is quieter than I thought it was, maybe that's just where I am right now. But the streets at 11:30pm on a sunday are the same as London on a saturday at 2pm. excitingly busy.  Before moving 10s of thousands of miles away from home marked x on the map; I envisioned bright lights, I saw night skies clear of stars, tradition, of course night markets and I was sure I would be able to smell curiosity. 

Now, 72 hours later here I am. morning looming, sitting on the bottom edge of my bed, my hotel room mate and potential colleague asleep although i can't complain she talks the majority of the time but she is all together a very nice lady and headphones over my afro; the hotel digital clock reads 02:57am. 02:58am it will be soon be 3am going on 03:30am. 

I am young, and was forced by my own mind to decide on a way to make the make belief believable. I have few fears, but the fears I have are matched with insecurities. alike many of the other transitioning young adults my age, I'm workin' on it, just wait on it. I am not afraid to lay my mind bare for all of you to see. I am enabling myself this year to show the vulnerabilities. The impurities and raw truths. Isn't that exciting for you to read? Censor where necessary.

Moment 

of truth.

What does tomorrow hold for me? I will no longer be looked upon as a girl. I am now a young woman making my way through the world but i still cut my toast into squares and my sandwiches into triangles. Tomorrow, I will take my place in the horizontal line beside other women of ages that to me will be unknown. 

With so much to take in, and my inquisitiveness at an all time high. In Asia, I am anon. anonymous. Cheeky jimmy neutch turning heads, roaming the streets of the T (taiwan). 

I'm more penny proud than pepper ann and more woman of the moment than YMCB. 

In 3 hours, i will awaken from the crisp white sheets which might i add have the signature of made in china, and i will put my best foot forward and whatever odds may lie ahead I will be sure to defy them. 

communication and making situations work to my advantage are my forte.  and i laugh when i'm nervous i also touch my nose on the left side. 

04:49am, 04:50am. 5

I am ready to bask in my own company, and blossom into the soon 22 year old woman i am intended to be by living purely in the moment. I am not giving very much of myself away, and i will reveal myself if only in the dead of night. Alike tonight, the voice of a wolf in the body of an antelope. (a very small antelope that is) With my loved ones now only a distant sound vibration over the phone. 

the laughs, eye opening moments, frustrations, captivating breakthroughs, the accomplishments, the crash landings, the rewards presented unconventionally, the longing for cuddles in bed, the language barriers, the new transportation and ever lasting need for translation. Oh, I'm so ready for it all. the people I will intertwine myself with, the culture i will immerse myself in. the long days at work, and the excitement in the morning to enter the classroom, the new beginnings and the chapter endings and most of all the unknown. The great unknown. i know, i know, i know.  

I'm not scared

Come get me. 

I am my own best friend, and my sister and sim too they are only a phone call away. I know they're prepared. we've been doing this for years! 

Whoever you are reading this, and as your eyes meet the page remember to seek out your own adventure  whilst you read the beginning of my own. i hope to stay fly, and i hope to waste no time. 

I move fast, so please keep up. & if you call and i don't answer the phone always leave a message.

But

for now.

I'm here.  And I'm awake.

05:03. breakfast at 7

signed allycat

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